it haS been a WHiLe...

i forgot when was the last time i actually come in here and blog or even to check on it..it just slipped away from my mind..a lot have happened during this period of time...

i've been back to my hometown Kuching...and now im on my way back to Uk again...met lots of new people there..learnt few things..spend quality time with family...plan has changed as well..

kinda lazy to elaborate on all of it..hahaha..dont really know where to start as well...

all i know is im dead bored..

On tHe waY bacKK!!!!

i never ever gonna take emirates and getting through all this transiting process again..it is so blardy tiring!im absolutely shattered now..stucked in the dubai airport now...not knowing what else to do...nothing to do also..shop?no more money..so cannot..omgg..i am boreddd....how on earth i am going to spend 5more hours till my boarding time..hopefully no more delay...ohh goshhh.!!!!!!!!!!!!

i have graduated!!!!!!!!!!!wooOHOOO!!!!!!!!!BEng in Mechanical Engineering with Honours..wohOO!!!>..no first class la..

i Am aLready 22...

yes...the 22..i am already 22..what am i doing now?basically i am sitting in the living room watching some british show..and listening to Number 1..the song that i have been searching for few days. on the other hand i totally got hang on to playing Nintendo Ds Lite..hahaha...i have been downloading few games into it. i reckon it is something that is not bad to do when you are really dead bored. afterall i need to find something to do while transittin 9freaking hours in the Dubai airport. not sure what we are going to do there. i am so bored here now. cant bring myself to sleep because i dont really want to wake up early tomorrow morning not knowing what to do. at the moment i am just waiting for the time to go back home!!!!!! but i know i am going to complain wanting to come back here again within the next few weeks while i am in kuching.i know me..i know myself too well i think. i cant stop myself from snacking!!what the hell!!!!i need to stop!!!cookies from Marks n Spencer is totally yummy!!worth every penny of it!!!tomorrow i am going to try the croissant...lets see if it is as yummy as the cookies..

result was suppose to come out yesterday. blardy hell made me couldnt really sleep for it. woke up super early for it but only to find out that it is not out yet. apparently it will only come out on the day i am flying..16th june..Tues..another restless night for me..i absolutely have no idea what i am watching on the tv...some stupid British show i guess...not really focusin on the screen as well...i am typing away...trying to get this post as long as possible because i wont have anything to do if i am done bloggin!!!oh gosh!!!

i suppose i should try to sleep early???dont really know what is there to do while i am back in kuching tho..i would want an escape to KL tho...initially i wanted to do hair extensions here..but only to found out that it is freaking 180pounds and above! lasting for 3months with proper maintenance..wth!!!it is so blardy expensive...can get it cheap in China i think...or taiwan..lol...if only...oh well....

i think my luggage should be overweight for all the stuffs that i am going to bring back. but really it is not alot..i dont think so at all...not sure...few reminders for myself..still need to get stuffs for a few people...

a t shirt

em..what else..maybe another top???not sure...we will see about it....i am going to London on saturday...we will see what else r there to grab...more food??oh gosh!!!!!!!

i think i seriously got nothing to blog about .....chioz~!

haPPy biRthDay to me!!!

yes..it's my birthday today!!!wooOHOO!!and im going to the uni's summerball later..hopefully ill have a good time there..this is my first birthday abroad..i guess like what a friend say..ill get used to it sooner or later having birthday abroad here. it certainly feels different. but yea...

thank you guys for the dinner in Nandos...and thank you for the cake wei hao...i really didnt expect it..at least i get to have a cake for my birthday this year..hahaha!~thank you!!!!

shall update you guys with the summerball...

beIng sIngLe..

have been single for almost 7months now...was just talking to my mum about it just now. yes i talked to relationships topic to my mum. It feels weird to me that why is it so hard for me to find a boyfriend. I guess the problem is with me. I think I have quite a big commitment problem. Truth to be told is that I am quite choosy when it comes to choosing boyfriend. I can be very particular in the guy that i want to be with. He must be someone that can provide my needs and needs by means including some of  my shopping habits. But it all depends on his current situation though. I mean if he is still a student at the moment I cannot really expect him to buy me expensive stuffs right?But if he is a working class I guess a gift every now and then wouldnt hurt much?

Is it that weird to be single at the age of 22?Honestly I dont think it is such a big deal. Or I am making it a big deal out of it?hahaa...I guess ever since I was 15years old most of my life has got involved with boys boys boys. I got my first boyfriend at the age of 15 and he broke up with me when I was 16. From there, I was single for a while, for a few months until I met my second boyfriend. We got together for few months and broke up because he's studying in New Zealand. And then I was single most of the time with the on n off or short fling thingy kind of relationship. I wouldnt really count those as a proper relationship kind of thing. And then towards the end of Form5 I got to know my 3rd boyfriend. We were together for 2 and a half year. One of my longest relationship ever. One of the happiest to be honest with. Things were much more simpler back then i guess. And then we broke up. And i got together with the recent ex boyfriend and we broke up after 1n a half year. I guess this is why I say, from the age of 15 until last year's November I was never really single because most of the time there were guys around me.

It would be a lie if I say that there are no guys around me when I first came. In fact, I got to know a few guys. But none of them lasted anyway. I guess the problem is really with me. Am i that choosy??hahaha....I dont know. Therefore I came up with a list of what I look for in my boyfriend:

1) Not that bad looking (Presentable)

2) Prefer to be english speaking

3) Must be nice and tolerate to me

4) At least a lil bit good in studies?

5) Love me

6) Appreciates me

But I am aware that there is a thing call LOVE IS BLIND...lol...but i guess none of the above really matters if you happen to really love someone. I really just dont get it why is it so hard for me to really be able to find someone and to love him properly. I guess it really takes a lot from me to be able to love someone. I am even not sure what is love about. Truth is....it has been a long time since I last felt loved by someone. Dont get me wrong. I am not in a hurry or desperate or anything like that. But it would be nice I guess to be hug by someone that you actually love.

what is love...

why is it that important....

how does love come along...

when will it comes...

who will it be...

where will it occurs....