have been single for almost 7months now...was just talking to my mum about it just now. yes i talked to relationships topic to my mum. It feels weird to me that why is it so hard for me to find a boyfriend. I guess the problem is with me. I think I have quite a big commitment problem. Truth to be told is that I am quite choosy when it comes to choosing boyfriend. I can be very particular in the guy that i want to be with. He must be someone that can provide my needs and needs by means including some of my shopping habits. But it all depends on his current situation though. I mean if he is still a student at the moment I cannot really expect him to buy me expensive stuffs right?But if he is a working class I guess a gift every now and then wouldnt hurt much? Is it that weird to be single at the age of 22?Honestly I dont think it is such a big deal. Or I am making it a big deal out of it?hahaa...I guess ever since I was 15years old most of my life has got involved with boys boys boys. I got my first boyfriend at the age of 15 and he broke up with me when I was 16. From there, I was single for a while, for a few months until I met my second boyfriend. We got together for few months and broke up because he's studying in New Zealand. And then I was single most of the time with the on n off or short fling thingy kind of relationship. I wouldnt really count those as a proper relationship kind of thing. And then towards the end of Form5 I got to know my 3rd boyfriend. We were together for 2 and a half year. One of my longest relationship ever. One of the happiest to be honest with. Things were much more simpler back then i guess. And then we broke up. And i got together with the recent ex boyfriend and we broke up after 1n a half year. I guess this is why I say, from the age of 15 until last year's November I was never really single because most of the time there were guys around me. It would be a lie if I say that there are no guys around me when I first came. In fact, I got to know a few guys. But none of them lasted anyway. I guess the problem is really with me. Am i that choosy??hahaha....I dont know. Therefore I came up with a list of what I look for in my boyfriend: 1) Not that bad looking (Presentable) 2) Prefer to be english speaking 3) Must be nice and tolerate to me 4) At least a lil bit good in studies? 5) Love me 6) Appreciates me But I am aware that there is a thing call LOVE IS BLIND...lol...but i guess none of the above really matters if you happen to really love someone. I really just dont get it why is it so hard for me to really be able to find someone and to love him properly. I guess it really takes a lot from me to be able to love someone. I am even not sure what is love about. Truth is....it has been a long time since I last felt loved by someone. Dont get me wrong. I am not in a hurry or desperate or anything like that. But it would be nice I guess to be hug by someone that you actually love. what is love... why is it that important.... how does love come along... when will it comes... who will it be... where will it occurs.... |